The Blog You’ve All Been Waiting For…

Was this blog post due several days ago…yes. Have my DMs been full of people BEGGING me to post my blog…duh. I owe you all a sincere apology, specifically Ashley Crutchfield. But here I am - better than ever… well, not exactly (hence why you’re reading this so late). Okay fine. The past couple of weeks have been nothing short of painful, confusing, and emotionally challenging. In the midst of that, I’ve cried (a lot), not slept great, had messy conversations with God, and somehow also laughed, felt an overwhelming sense of peace, and won a $65 Costco gift card… so it hasn’t all been bad.

I could go on and on about everything I learned in February, and I don’t want to overlook any of it. But I think it’s important that I highlight some of the personal growth I’ve seen in myself rather than just what I’ve learned in the classroom. That said, we kicked off February with a Career Calling Vocational Retreat - I don’t think I’ve ever taken so many notes in my entire life. It was such an intentional time of understanding how each of us is uniquely wired and created to bless the Lord through our work while leaning into the gifts He’s already given us.

In class, we’ve started our journey through the New Testament, completed some massive projects, and even started a new class focused on the Sermon on the Mount, which I’m really excited about. All of that has been incredible, but the biggest thing I want to focus on is the personal growth I’ve seen in myself recently.

Within the past week, I had to take a step back from a friendship that I thought would last a lifetime. To be honest, it has been so, so, so hard. It feels like the world in my life has kind of zoned out. As I mentioned earlier, I’ve had these messy conversations with the Lord - moments where I didn’t understand why this was happening. For the first time in my life, I’ve been angry with God. It’s been a really challenging season, yet in the middle of all that chaos…I’ve discovered an overwhelming sense of peace.

As I sit here alone with my thoughts, there’s a worship song called Nothing Else by Cody Carnes that has been playing in the background. As I’m listening to the lyrics, he sings:

“I don’t want anything else but Your presence.
I don’t want anything else but Your heart.
I don’t want anything else but You, Jesus.

I’m coming back to the heart of worship.
I’m coming back to what it’s all about—just You, Jesus.
Take all the stuff. I don’t care. I don’t want it.
Just You, Jesus. Nothing else will do.”

I remember sitting alone in my room this time last year and feeling so incredibly alone. On paper, everything looked perfect. I had great friends, I was working my dream internship, and everything on the outside looked polished and professional. On the inside, I was dying.

The Lord has been so gentle, patient, and kind. I remember getting to the point where, for the first time, I said, “I don’t want anything else but You, Jesus. Take all the stuff. I don’t care. I don’t want it.” Now, a year later, I’m sitting alone in my room again. But this time, I’m almost on the verge of tears because I’m so happy with myself. I’m proud of myself, and I can feel the gentleness of the Lord.

I don’t feel alone anymore.

I guess my whole point, as I’ve been rambling all over the place, is pretty simple: This year has changed my life. It’s been hard. I’ve given up a lot. I’ve lost opportunities. I’ve missed out on things. I’ve even lost friends. Yet, I remember an invitation that was given to me before I became a Christian. Someone told me: “Following Christ will cost you.

Following Christ will cost you.

But the reward is His presence.

And honestly?

That’s enough.

See you next month.

Love,

Peyton

Embracing the Reality of Being Present

10 weeks until fellow ends. 10 weeks!! When Ashley said this at our round table this past Wednesday, I couldn't believe the words coming from her mouth. I grazed my eyes around the room, deeply looking at every fellow. A smile took up upon my face as I recounted everything we did this past year. From the first day of awkward encounters to this moment on the couch feeling so connected and loved. I could not stop thinking of how God has been shaping all of us in his unique way. To think that this year went by so quickly; It feels like it just started. Soon it will be us all at the lake house soaking in as much time before we embark on our own adventures into the unknown (some known). I wonder often what this year would have looked like if I wasn’t in the fellow’s program. Where would I have gone, what would my job have been and how many new friends would I have encountered along the way. Every little moment I get to spend with you guys is a moment I know I won't have for too long. Especially when May comes around and I either get the job I'm applying for (if it's in God’s will) or I move home for the summer to figure out what's next. I know Raleigh will forever hold a place in my heart. 

 I was talking with the lady I worked for, over last summer, and she was mentioning me coming back out this summer to help upload her TV shows to YT and 3 other famous painters shows as well. They of course would be paying me to do this and the experience I would gain would be crucial for my future in the art world. Colorado spring has a special place in my heart, and I constantly think about it from time to time. I miss the mountains (not the pathetic ones we have here in NC (to think they are even called mountains, what a joke). The community and overall vibe of the area was also what gained my attention and the warm weather to the cold brisk nights. I want to say Raleigh is the home for me but as of now it doesn't feel like that. Yes, I've made community not only with the fellows but with some of the young adults in the church and this too will be hard to leave. I went to the young adults Ministry trivia night tonight and on my way out I met two girls also heading to their car. I had a brief conversation with them, and they said they were just trying to find a new home church in which I replied, “Home is not where church is, home is with God wherever you go”. It got me thinking on my way home in the car that no matter where I go, God will lead me towards his will. It could in Boone, NC or across the US. But I’m taking the time to allow myself to sit in these few moments and spaces I have left with you fellow fellows.

 So, when I ask you about your day, don't just say it was good but allow me to witness into how it was good. I want to deeply understand you even more than I do now. I don't want to leave the program feeling like, “I should have gotten to know them better”. I want to leave knowing you guys to the fullest. God has allowed us to truly embrace each other in so many ways and so my hope is in these next 10 weeks that we can embrace this deeper understanding of what it means to truly know thy brother and sister, the way Christ knows us. And when goodbyes are said that they won't be known as goodbyes but in actuality, “See you later”.

To what we have left,

Tyler Brantley

Four Things I learned/ loved in February!

February is the month of loveee and Lent. Here are four things that I’ve learned, was thinking about, or that I was loving (or all three!)

• For one lets start with a little Lent and loving combo. I deeply enjoy the liturgical calendar and get excited to participate in it. I am reading a Lenten devotional called “Bread and Wine” that has daily readings from a variety of authors that I also read last year. It is just so rich with wisdom. I am also reading a book called “Lent” by Esau McCaulley. It had a quote that I think is such a beautiful reminder: “The joy of the Lord is not a ticket to be purchased by our fasts.” Just loving that.

• I loved all of our Galentines festivities. On Valentine's Day, the gal fellows had a night of crafting, eating, and spending time together talking about things we love, and it was just so sweet. I also got to have two of Iris’s Valentine’s menu items, the Strawberry Matcha and the Miso Mocha Latte.

• I am loving and learning all about needlepointing. Thank you to my friend Caroline Crist, who so kindly wandered our local Needlepoint.com store to get me started on my needlepointing journey. I have so far needlepointed a rainbow trout, and I am currently working on the background (using a scotch stitch, might I add.) I have been loving this new creative outlet of mine and can’t wait to start more projects!

• I learned that I learn better through tonal memory than verbal memory. At our Career Calling and Vocation retreat, we learned what our results from our motivation and learning tests mean. I always thought I learned better by reading, but it turns out I learn better when I can hear something and take notes. Cool stuff.

All in all, I had a lovely February, and I hope you did too.

xoxo,

Jackie

The Never-Ending, Yet Gone-Too-Soon February

Welcome to February’s blog! Here I write, exhausted from a month that was jam-packed with so many major events, yet in reflection, it flew by. I could easily sit here and give you a play-by-play, and honestly, I do think it’d be interesting (maybe just to me), but instead of that, I feel the call draw near to an overwhelming sense of gratitude as I exit February.

This program has so much to offer me. It can feel overwhelming at times, and this month, especially, there was so much to absorb, and still I am very grateful for it. Career and calling retreat left me feeling rich in knowing more about myself, how the Lord views success, and calls us to mobilize change in our community. Our classes, where we learned about finances, professional development, and writing our genograms (WOOF), and much more, all held so much and opened doors for even more exploration.

The genogram was really challenging for me. I had to step out of my comfort zone, in fear and in knowing that the Lord was actively carrying me through. I’m grateful for a strong support system, especially the fellows for seeing me, praying for me, and cheering me on as I did hard things this month. I am also grateful for Ashley and for how she knows just the right moments to push you more when she knows what you’re capable of. I am grateful for a community that calls me higher.

Obviously I’m grateful for Simas. He threw me the best birthday party EVER, cooking for about 30 people and roping all his roommates and my bestie Emma in to help in whatever ways they could. I felt so cared for and loved. To sit at a long dinner table amongst the people that I love so much, eat food that was delicious and made with love, and revel in the ways the Lord has shown me his tender love for 23 years was exactly what my soul needed. I weep when I think about it, especially Simas’ wipeboard that had his cooking plan that started at NOON. Anyways, he’s awesome, and has shown up for me so well.

I am grateful for my friends. I went wedding dress shopping with Emma, Ellia, and Ava, and to my surprise, found my dress at Anthropologie! And I bought it, thanks mama! (check that off the wedding to-do list). What a rush, and thank GOD because I could not keep shopping. But for real, my friends and my mom are the best, and I am again just overwhelmed with gratitude for how they show up and celebrate me.

My sweet fellow girlies as well <3 thank you for making my music video dreams come true! For real, I love these girls more and more every day. Women’s retreat breathed air into my lungs. I love girlhood and the precious time I get with these six girls.

Gratitude! My cup overflows. May the Lord remind me of this daily.

Thanks for reading, until next time.

Carsyn Gilmore

Where There's a Will #6

“I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are my friends, since I have told you everything the Father told me.” - John 15:15 NLT

This idea of God wanting to be my friend has been prevalent since the very beginning of Fellows. In September at our orientation retreat, we were told that we would be rooted in John 15. In October when we had men’s retreat our focus was on John 15 and what it looked like to have intentional and intergenerational male friendships. Even as recently as Ash Wednesday service, Hayes prayed over me that I would know and realize that God is my friend. Then I got to lead roundtable and reflect on our time reading Abba’s Child. This conversation reminded me of the Lord’s intentionality and how I need to draw near to Him!

Recently, I have seen how God shows His friendship to me through my male friendships.

Two of my good friends from college, Michael Allen and Tristan Gentile, had the idea of getting together every other week and just hanging out. This idea comes with a group chat of around ten people and whoever can show up does and it has been so good. Being able to get together with this group to reflect, laugh, and get away from the business and routine that we all get stuck in sometimes.

This past weekend, I got to go up to Boone on Friday and see a lot of my good friends from college and hang out for the night. On my way out of town, I got to stop in and have lunch with my YoungLife area director, August Short. I made my way down to Asheville on Saturday to celebrate my good friend Henry Peterson’s engagement! This night specifically felt like I was back in college hanging out with these guys at the Cabin. Then I got to come back to Raleigh and have guy’s night with the Fellows!

It has been so sweet to be able to reflect on these nights and realize that Jesus is sitting by the fire with us at Michael’s, He is sitting beside us as we share meals all around Boone, He is sitting with us in the hot tub in Asheville, and He is listening to us while we talk at LBC.

Sam Crutchfield said last night, “You can’t make old friends.” I am so glad to be able to say that these friends I have now are going to be my old friends one day. Being reminded that the Lord wants to be my friend helps me realize just how good my friends are and to that I say… THANKS BE TO GOD

-Will Brown

Raleigh Fellows Swag

CCVR

Jasper

Valentine's Day!

Future Raleigh Fellows! and Beau

The Peterson's!!

hey again

Oh hi! It’s Hailey and I’m so glad to be writing to all of the blog readers, IN THE SUN. Currently, I’m sitting on the back porch and the sun is shining right on my face and i’m watching Maggie Miedema (dog) sun bathing as well. Looking back at the beginning of the month, I cannot believe we were at Career Calling Vocation Retreat? That feels like it was months ago. Anyways! I was reading a devo this morning from Emotionally Healthy Spirituality Day by Day, and it shocked me how perfect it was for wrapping up February; the month of learning about ourselves more and more and being better stewards of the gifts the lord has given us. 

Scripture: Psalm 139: 13-16

For you created my inmost being;

    you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 

    your works are wonderful,

    I know that full well. 

My frame was not hidden from you

    when I was made in the secret place, 

    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 

Your eyes saw my unformed body;

    all the days ordained for me were written in your book

    before one of them came to be. 

Devotional: Written by Parker Palmer 

Vocation does not come from a voice "out there" calling me to become something I am not. It comes from a voice "in here" calling me to be the person I was born to be, to fulfill the original selfhood given me at birth by God. 

It is a strange gift, this birthright of self. Accepting it turns out to be even more demanding than attempting to become someone else! I have sometimes responded to that demand by ignoring the gift, or hiding it, or fleeing from it, or squandering it- and I think I am not alone. There is a Hasidic tale that reveals, with amazing brevity, both the universal tendency to want to be someone else and the ultimate importance of becoming one's self. Rabbi Zusya, when he was an old man, said, "In the coming world, they will not ask me: Why were you not Moses? They will ask me: Why were you not Zusya?"

When thinking about Psalm 139, I directly correlate it to beauty/the flesh because that's all that I have seen it correlated with online, in political discussions, and amongst girls in bible study. But the truth is that the God that created my flesh is pleased beyond measure with who I am as a soul and what gifts I bring to the table; all that he created me to be. 

I am still, and probably forever will be, chewing on the results I was given from the tests I got to take for the Carrer Calling Vocation Retreat and all of the information I got from family interviews that went into writing my (30 page by accident) Genogram paper. But the Lord designed me in these ways: to have my story, to have my gifts, to have my unique view of who God is in my life, and to be made aware of how I can use all of it to be a living sacrifice in the exact way Hailey Cook is supposed to be. 

Top 5 songs of the month:

Oughta See You (The Way I Do)- Flatland Cavalry

Alleycat- Mumford & Sons 

Icarus- Mumford & Sons, Gigi Perez 

Jesus, My Brother- Live by Mission House 

Everything Harry Styles has ever released. Getting ready for the BIG DAY FRIDAY!!!!

See you again soon (with a new Harry Styles album and even more sun than now)!!!

-Hailey Cook

A cool and full 28 days!

I’m back ringing in March, one of my favorite months of the year! The flowers are beginning to bloom, we’re getting days of sun, and I feel all the goodness of spring emerging. But before I get ahead of myself into March, let’s recap February, a chilly month that has delivered plenty of blessings and many challenges at my door. We started our month at the lake for our Career and Vocational Calling retreat! Boy oh boy did I learn some good stuff this week - rich content about work and who I am specifically made to be - all my talents and limitations included. There is real, meaningful growth happening in us as we have gotten the privilege of looking at all of the aspects of ourselves laid out, diving deep in a one on one session with Cam (professional at this), and bringing it all to God, asking him to grow in us what we pinpointed. This week reminded me of my unique belovedness while also, often painfully, pressing on the weaknesses that I need help in. Isn’t that what this whole year has done for me? I’m so grateful that we get to do this as 22-26 year olds - I don’t take that for granted. 

We have dived deep into our families this month, working through interviewing our families and writing our genogram papers. This has brought the unique opportunity to really sit in the full picture of our family systems. I’m not going to lie, it's been tiring as a person who carries emotions heavily, I’ve been weary of the time spent thinking about, processing, and holding the weight of multiple generations’ “stuff”. It’s also a beautiful time to allow my family members to really tell their story. Getting to put their lens on for a little bit, has deepened my understanding and compassion for each person in my family. I’ve been able to spot virtues passed along through generations like loyalty, hospitality, independence, optimism, value of relationships and also I’ve had to face tough truths about my family as well. I might be tired and thankful to be done with this part for now, but I’m better because of the process and I will have the rich gift of this experience for many, many years to come. 

Hard pivot: I love Valentine's day! My parents always made an easily skippable holiday so special growing up, decorating the hallway, cooking an extravagant dinner, and my dad walking his three daughters one by one to the table in our best dress. It has always held a dear spot in my heart, so I was so thankful when the girls let me be extra for the day and help throw a galentines at Maddie Grace’s parents house. It was the best night making our own pizzas, laughing, and gifting each other valentines. A couple weeks after, two of my friends came to visit from college - a joy!! It was so special to share this new home with friends that feel like home already. Then off to the women's retreat! Wow, what a weekend it was. I was moved many times to tears by a room of 150 women of all ages, shapes, life stages, personalities, coming together to worship our very thoughtful creator and hear each other’s stories. This weekend I felt like a sponge, trying my best to soak up all the advice and beautiful ways each woman has experienced not only God, but the entirety of their lives - it was a real blessing for me that I’ll be thinking about for a long time. February was a month full of delightful, sweet friendships - the truth that God loves women has never been so close to me! 

One other reality of February is the beginning of Lent. I am learning the longing of Lent, the humility of my beginning as ashes and my eventual end, how to keep one foot in the waiting and one foot in the celebration that Christ has already won the victory over death. The Lord is always kind in his timing, he is always working redemption in my life. I see that clearly with all he has unearthed in my soul through this month right in time for Lent to slow me down to sit with it all. So I’ll be here, sitting in it, I’ll get back to you in April! 

Dying to know what I’m loving? Happy to make you happy!

• Strawberry flat white from Iris (Valentine’s special)

• The weather in Wilmington for the retreat

• Taking my friends to H-Mart and the farmer’s market (let us walk around food and we’re happy)

• Blueberry matchas 

• Jackie sitting where Conrad sat in the Summer I Turned Pretty

• Walking and learning from Kathryn (mentor!) she is so wise 

• My other friends coming this weekend!!!! 4 more days! (yes this is the March, but my excitement has started in February)

• New benchwarmers bagels location! -

• Listening to 150 women sing “Spirit of God, come like the dawn. Open the heavens on us. We wanna know you, we wanna know you.” How powerful! 

Here I go and here comes spring!

With love, Reagan 

beverly's february

Happy March! 

It’s your favorite fellow Bevi here to chat about February. Here was my preview from the last blog: “What’s next? Writing family genogram paper, considering career/future ooo scary, quality time with fellows, and probably more things being stirred up in my mind to learn from.” Each of these things happened! Here are some reflections:

Highlights:

• Our career retreat! I thought this would be very overwhelming and exhausting but it wasn’t. It was a lot of content, but ended up being very digestible. I enjoyed discussing the theology of work and thinking about the bigger picture of how I’m wired. I learned a lotttt about myself, which was helpful, but I still have so much to reflect on. Also was grateful for bonding time with fellows! 

• Galentine’s hangout - shoutout Maddie Grace and Reagan for putting this together it was so sweet and fun and I love doing crafts!

• Tutoring my girl Chloe at N2N! She’s the best

• Carsyn’s bday party (Simas you’re amazing) and our girls dinner at the standard. It was so good to celebrate you Carsyn! 

• Accidental collab with Jacob and MG last Friday - went on a long walk, then drove together downtown to meet other fellows and friends for drinks. Love this trio

• Ash Wednesday service (in my groutfit) at Apostles was sweet. Also was feeling grateful around this time to work at St. David’s with Christian community and mentors — it’s a special thing to receive ashes at your place of work, and I don’t know if I’ll experience that again.

• Women’s retreat at Wrightsville beach! It was fun to putz at the beach, go out to meals, hang out and be silly together, and do our silly skit with some of the older women at Apostles. 

Lowlights:

• Sitting in the dentist chair for 4 hours straight to get cavities filled was absolutely brutal. And my teeth and mouth have been hurting a lot recently

• I’ve been feeling the weight of learning about and thinking about myself—about my strengths and weaknesses, enneagram, work stuff, etc. It’s been a lot of self discovery which is lovely but this is heavy and just isn’t sustainable 

• I’d probably say writing the genogram paper and analyzing my family was a bit exhausting

A big theme this month for me has been the concept of time and learning how to use it well and give it to God. I want to have time to hang out with people here, call my other friends, call my family, reflect on the career retreat, write my genogram paper and reflect on it, think about and start applying to jobs, write 360s for the fellows, read, spend time with the Lord, exercise, go to bed early, and more. I really appreciated the “Time” devo in the Blue Book this month. It was fun to have Psalm 90 be the blessing given to us at the end of the career retreat as we prayed for God to “establish the work of our hands” and then go home and see Psalm 90 in the Time devo for me to read every day. This devo has helped shape my view of time. I’ve been practicing how to move more slowly at work and I’ve been praying and trusting that the Lord would use each day as it needs to be used. Hope this can continue as the spring gets even crazier!

Stay tuned for: more retreats, more things to learn, visits from friends and family, etc.

Thanks for reading! - Bevi Lundeen

A Feb Full of (Self) Love - MG

What a whirlwind of a month. The bitter cold of winter is finally started to break open into spring, and I feel myself starting to come alive! Each winter, I feel like the Lord (in tangent with Lent) is working on the underground parts of me, uprooting some things and planting others, in time for me to open out to the world in the spring and summer. In fellows, this pattern has been more true than ever!

At our Career, Calling and Vocation Retreat, I took a closer look at myself – so close, in fact, that I became weary of self reflection, for perhaps the first time ever – and saw glimpses of my strengths and weaknesses from a new light. While overwhelming, the information I learned about myself has also equipped me with new language and framework for growth, and I've started seeing myself a little more in line with how God sees me, or at least I hope. All I know is that He is so fond of me and likes me a lot, and that's good enough for now!

Then, we flew straight into genogram paper-writing! Honestly, this has just been one big grind to get it done, but it's been a really interesting time to reflect on my family while also seeing myself more clearly. I don't really have anything particularly introspective or revolutionary to say other than that, so I shall beware the unbearable weight of meaning-making and stop there for now.

God has been doing a quietly disruptive work in my life this year, and it feels like it’s really been poking its head up this January and February. And then here comes Lent! Right on time as usual! What a perfect time to sit with the Lord in all of this. Again, don't have anything I feel like sharing yet, but I feel my soul resetting. And if you know me, you know I've been eating up my blessings from “Celtic Wheel of the Year - Old Celtic and Christian Prayers”. Here's a blessing for Ash Wednesday that I shared with the group at CCVR in a devotional:

May the blessing of God,

from whom I came and to whom I shall return, 

be upon me as I take each step of this sacred journey. 

Remain with me this day and every day

Until you lead me into your peace dear God.

Okay I'm done writing. Can't stand another minute of self reflection. Love you all. See you next month!

-Maddie Grace (aka Mattie Greg)

Blog, the Sixth

February has been full and not just in the sense of a lot happening. I’ve also felt quite fulfilled from all that it has held. To begin the month, we had arguably my most anticipated part of Fellows; our Career, Calling, & Vocation Retreat. It was great to be back at the Lake (even if parts of it were frozen over) and mix productivity with rest once again. We witnessed a boring Superbowl, an iconic moment from UNC’s Seth Trimble, and each of us growing in our understanding of ourselves. I’m grateful for the experience to be able to better understand my strengths, giftings, and weaknesses as well as how to articulate them.

At the start of next month, we have our Genogram papers due. This has also been a healthy (even if hard) exercise to grow in my understanding of myself. Specifically, as I learn more fully about my family, it’s been a very unique experience to reflect on what’s impacted me, how I can be grateful, and where I hope to embrace differentiation.

As I begin to contemplate post-Fellows, I am hitting a bit of a crossroads. I have options about what I want to pursue and frankly it’s hard. There are some things I’m resolved to do (or not do), and others where I simply must pull a Kevin DeYoung and just do something. I’m grateful to have been reminded lately that even closed doors can teach me where to go. And as someone who experienced closed door after closed door in the past couple of years, I’m grateful to know I’ll likely find another slammed shut. And for the ones that will be opened, I look forward to stepping on through.

Writing this blog has been sponsored by Mumford & Sons new album Prizefighter. It is immaculate music and I’ll make a cup of coffee for whoever (other than my friend Josh because I already told him) which two songs off the album hit the hardest right now. Or I’ll just make you a cup of coffee if you ask honestly. Speaking of coffee, I’ve had a lot of interesting one’s lately. Jubala’s free espresso Friday from the 20th tasted like an orange lollipop, my morning pour-over the other day boasted juicy & floral bergamot with honey-esque sweetness, Simas made me an excellent flat white, I loved my cutie capp from Sola for Valentine’s Day, and I’m still not over that fruit looper from Promethium or strawberries & cream flat white from Iris. Oh, can’t forget the beans I got from Fount an hour before we left for retreat that I needed google translate to be able to understand. They’ve been quite delightful as of late.

There’s a lot more that has made me feel full, but I’ll leave you with this: London is red.

Jacob W. Currin

Where There's a Will #5

“22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!” - Galatians 5:22-23

This scripture is from an examen exercise that we were given this month to pray and look over.  Examen allows us to slow down and pay attention to the life we have been living. This lets us feel the growth in discernment in God’s presence and what draws us toward a life of following Jesus and what draws us away.

In the past couple of weeks/months, I have been trying to recruit some of my friends from App to come be a part of the Raleigh Fellows program next year. While I was telling them about the program and the things that I have been doing, I began to reflect on what I was doing a year ago when I was in their shoes. Having the practice of examen to think back and pray over the last few months as a Fellow and the last year that I have been committed to be a Fellow made talking about the program so much easier. Getting to look back over the last year of my life and seeing how the Lord has shown up in various ways has been awesome to see. Especially when it comes back to things like my last semester of college, my last summer in Boone, and all the firsts that come with being a Raleigh Fellow. Experiencing the fruits that the Holy Spirit has been producing from the above verse has been so sweet. I can’t wait for those guys I got to help recruit to Raleigh and get to taste the fruit themselves!

The month of January has brought plenty of love, joy, peace and goodness into my life. Our trip to Nicaragua gave me an abundance of this fruit. I am not going to get into the details about the trip, but I am sure you can read everybody else’s blog for Nicaragua content. I can’t believe the first month of the year has already come and gone, but I can’t wait to keep reflecting on it and all the things coming up!

-Will Brown

Beach Day

Van Ride

Sweet Kids in La Fortuna

Ruby's Prayer House

Spider-Man

Snow Day Legos

Salsa Fresh

Gabi Bday

Morgan's January

Hey everyone! This month had to have been more than 31 days…it truly felt like a lifetime! No complaints though, it was full of so many wonderful new things. We started off in Nicaragua where I met up with everyone at the Miami Airport. I loved seeing everyone again after we had been apart for so long. Nicaragua was life-changing in more ways than I can count. La Fortuna opened my eyes to the Lord working in fresh and unexpected ways. I was fortunate enough to experience a new culture and community that welcomed us with open arms. The memories we made there will stay with me for the rest of my life. We also used part of our time in Nicaragua to explore other areas of the country. The lagoon was truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been and easily one of my favorite days.

Life in Raleigh has been slow but also very busy since returning. I learned to ice skate for starters (thank you Anna, Peyton, and Hailey for making this possible). I spent last weekend snowed in binge watching Star Wars with my host mother, the one and only Maddy Ritter, and then last night I watched a hockey game with my host father, Cameron Ritter. Their giant TV has changed my life, I don’t know how I’ll ever go back, I am obsessed.

February holds a lot of unknowns ahead. There have been some unexpected changes that came up at the end of January, and a lot has been up in the air because of it. Praying that this month I can find clarity and joy in all the moments it has to offer!

-Morgan

Time is flying...

Oh January, how you have flown by.

I was working on a newsletter for work just the other day and had to pause when I typed “February’s Edition…” - it felt wrong somehow. Like we were opening Christmas gifts just last week. I have this desire for life to slow down, to have the capacity to fully live in the blessing of each hour of every single day. And yet, if I’m completely honest, I so often don’t want that. I feel the tension of not wanting my Fellows year to end, while also feeling the ache of waiting for something new to begin.

Most nights, that waiting shows up quietly. It looks like lying in bed…mentally running through questions I don’t have answers to yet.

Where will I live?
Who will I live with?
Do I bank on the Hurricanes to offer me a full-time position?
Will I live in Raleigh - gosh, I hope so. At least…I think I hope so.

There are so many unanswered questions lingering in the back of my mind, yet I’m still called to live in the moment…right? I feel like Peter in the book of Matthew when he steps out onto the water, sees the wind, and cries out, “Lord, save me!” I’m taking steps in faith, and I even know the Lord is there. I know He has something good for me - whatever that may look like - so why do I still feel that same doubt Peter felt?

If the Lord were standing right in front of me, would I still doubt? Probably. But why?

Okay - deep breath. That got pretty heavy, so let’s have some fun with the rest of this blog.

January has been insane. Spoiler alert: I traveled to Nicaragua with my fellow Fellows and saw a glimpse into a world I quite frankly didn’t know existed. Naturally, I knew that life looked tremendously different outside of the United States, yet I’m convinced it’s impossible to really understand until you see it with your own eyes. Until you feel the embrace of a hug from a child who seemingly has nothing, yet still has joy.

Not temporary spurts of dopamine, but joy - real, rooted joy. It was beautifully painful in the best way.

I also experienced my first flight and let me tell you - airplanes are cool. 10/10 recommend.

Hockey season is in full swing, and ya boy got a promotion - woohoo! It’s kind of wild how the Lord works. I had fully anticipated asking my boss if she’d be okay with me shadowing her sometime soon (something I’ve done in the past), and before I could even ask, I was invited to step into a temporary role that closely resembles her own.

The technical term is “Stage Manager,” which essentially means helping run the show. I wear a headset and hear every single second of every planned moment throughout the night - every cue, every transition, every adjustment in real time. It’s fast-paced, intense, and honestly…pretty awesome.

Will this turn into a full-time job? Who knows. Like I said earlier…so many unanswered questions.

But at the center of all of this, while yes, I’m incredibly grateful and excited about the promotion, where I saw the Lord the most was in how celebrated I felt. The entire Canes Crew, along with other staff members and even fans, have shared such kind words and encouragement. In a season full of uncertainty, feeling genuinely known and supported has meant more than I can put into words.

So yes - there are still so many unanswered questions.
Yet in all of this, I still say: Thanks be to God.

-Peyton Odum

the hills are alive with the sound of music

Oh hey! It’s Hailey Cook. Lovely to see you here.

A practice we have been implementing more intentionally this month due to Spiritual Formation with Mary has been daily examen. Examen is mostly meant to be practiced daily; looking at the day just lived and looking forward to the day to come. Thought I would do a brief monthly examen- for myself, yes, but I realized that’s what the blog basically is so just a fun new set up.

1.     Become aware of the presence of God. Look at the month with God’s eyes and not merely my own.

2.     Give thanks! The month just lived is a gift from God. Be grateful for it!

This month was full, fun, educating, humbling and restorative. Some things that stand out are being in Nicaragua, new work and movement happening with the new job I took for the spring & summer, Harry Styles coming back, skating at the Lenovo Center with Morgan & Peyton, enneagram class, exploring my enneagram some more, tried Pho for the first time, Iris lattes, wearing my sweaters, getting snowed in with the Miedema’s and Reagan, and this weekend getting snowed in with the Miedema’s and my friend Madison who came and visited for the weekend! Lord, Thank you!

3.     Review the month. What brought me closer to God? When did I feel resistance to God?

Closer: Community during snow days. It was so sweet to get time with the Miedema’s and friends during that time. Rest! I feel like we started off the year strong with a whole international trip and it was easy for me to come back and feel like I needed a bit of rest already and I’ve gotten that this past week with snow days. Reading A Shepheard Looks at Psalm 23 still! So good. Keeping up with friends and family better and schedule feeling a lot less daunting than last semester. Roundtable- like always. Having restorative conversations and making room for the Lord in the midst of my weaknesses.

Resistance: In my mornings. I want to be going to bed at an earlier time to get more unrushed time with the Lord in the mornings. My phone! I really dislike how everything seems to be revolving around having it on me all the time. Just a bad time holder honestly. There were some instances and there always will be where I question and wonder where God is in it. Cool to see how He shows himself but definitely harder in the moment. There was a few of those this month!

4.     Face my shortcomings. Honestly look at what is wrong in my life and in me. Ask for forgiveness.

A few in particular stand out to me that I have shared with the fellows.

-I want to be a person that can easily envision myself with a good and sweet future. I want a home, a community that is sweet, a Church that is wise and supportive and awesome, etc. And I feel like I have that in Raleigh! The Lord wants to do really sweet things for me, and I want to be more confidently accepting of the invitation He is giving me.

-I want to work from my rest naturally and not rest from my work. I wake up and automatically think “what do I have to do today/how much time do I have until the next thing/how are all of these things going to get done today?” all normal questions but I want to naturally run to the Lord in the mornings before running towards my to-do list.

5.     Look forward to the month to come! Ask God where I need Him in the month to come.

I’m so eager to see what the Lord does with February! Personally, February is just a bit harder for me and that just the reality, but there is hope and newness in it all also. I’m looking forward to the retreats we have for fellows, getting to be with the fellows more, celebrating small things (hoping to get super good at this), creating space for some ease in a morning routine with God, getting back into classes, going back to neighbor-2-neighbor, galentines and wayyyy more. Lord, be with me. Teach me and open my eyes in new ways you see fit for the month.

Top 5 songs of the month (cannot forget)

-Aperture- Harry Styles. No other way to start off this list

-Me and I- Abba

-Day For Singing- Mission House. But honestly just the whole Family Nights Vol. 2 Album

-Another Saturday Night- Sam Cooke

-December, 1963 (Oh What a Night!)- The Four Seasons

So long, Farewell! (I’m watching The Sound of Music)

Tyler's January: A Month of Return

I can’t believe January has already slipped away. It feels unreal how quickly time moves—one moment it’s New Year’s Day, and the next the month is already behind us. Time really does fly when life is full, meaningful, and moving.

We began the year in Nicaragua, spending a week at a breathtaking compound that I can only describe as Eden from Genesis. Our first day was at the beach, where the waves were massive and humbling in the best way. The following days were spent in the village, working alongside locals to pour concrete, build beds for families, distribute food, and pray with and over the community. The experience was deeply eye-opening. I often find myself revisiting the photographs I took during the trip—though many remain unedited. For now, it doesn’t feel like the right moment to return to them. Some images need time before they’re fully processed, both creatively and personally.

January also brought a new chapter professionally. I was offered a full-time position at Strawbridge Studios Inc., and I’m incredibly grateful for the stability and consistency this role brings. I’ve quickly grown comfortable with my coworkers, sharing meaningful conversations even in the middle of the rush season. While my commute is about thirty minutes, I’ve come to value that early morning time—listening to podcasts around 6:45 a.m. and watching the sunrise unfold has become a quiet, grounding ritual.

Looking ahead, February appears to be retreat-heavy, with the possibility of snow days sprinkled in. I’m genuinely looking forward to slowing down, body sledding, maybe even making snow cream, and growing closer with the other fellows. I also hope to be more intentional about capturing moments with people—including myself. As a photographer, it’s easy to forget that being present in the frame matters just as much as standing behind the camera.

This post may be shorter than usual, but January itself felt that way—brief, restorative, and necessary. It was a month marked by recovery, rest, and reconnection: with others, with my work, and with myself. Sometimes, that’s more than enough.

MG's January - We're So Back

Hello everyone!!

January has been a full one - from warm Nicaraguan summer to cold NC snow days, I feel like we’ve seen it all! But it feels good to be back with the fellows doing all the fellows things.

This month has been one of new intentions and new self discoveries, aand a lot of days of cancelled class and free hours to ponder and slow down and be out of routine.

One of the catalysts for my self reflection has been our Enneagram classes. I’ve been a diehard fan of the Enneagram since high school and have identified as a type 9 for many years, but it’s been a while since I’ve gone back to the Enneagram with the intention of growth. However, a lot of new things have popped up for me during this time, and since I’m sure the fellows are sick of me talking about it, I’m going to brain dump all of my thoughts and feelings about it here:

• Over the last few years, I’ve worked on voicing my opinion & being more comfortable with conflict (a struggle for 9s), but recently I’ve realized how much the “spiritual sloth” of the 9 is still so present in my life. It looks a lot like falling asleep to my inner needs, lacking intrinsic motivation to do the things I want to do, and devaluing my own thoughts and experiences. This was both validating and discouraging, knowing that there is still much inner work to do!

• What felt really helpful has been learning more about the connecting points on the enneagram, and how to use those to tap into other characteristics to pull myself out of my “nine-ness”. Nines are connected to Threes and Sixes, and can exhibit negative qualities of those types, but also pull from their strengths. For example, when I’m feeling stuck, I can tap into the 3’s drive and ambition or the 6’s planning and intentionality, and “act out of” those numbers. Because 3s are in the heart triad, and 6s are in the head triad, connecting with those numbers can also balance out my gut/body instinct and allow me to be more well-rounded, and therefore more in touch with myself.

• Some ways I am working on incorporating this to get unstuck in my inner life:

  • Self-care: spending more time & energy on self-care. Pulling from the 3 and seeing my image and well-being as a worthwhile investment, not a burden.

  • Planning & tracking goals: I always saw myself as a more go-with-the-flow person when it comes to my goals and ambitions, but I’m seeing my need to pull from the 6 and 3 to figure out what I really want out of life and put a plan in place to get it! I’m doing monthly audits to check in on different areas of my life regularly, celebrate small wins, and reorient my mind to the big picture. This feels more refreshing and exciting than I thought it would, and I’m building the muscle of regularly working toward long term hopes and dreams!

There’s definitely more, but I’m trying to start with small changes, to be 2% better every day! Stay tuned for a February update!

With love, Maddie Grace :)

What a Way to Start the New Year.

January is a month that usually feels like it doesn’t really exist; however, this January in particular was such a whirlwind of so many things that it truly felt like a dream.

I started off this month (and new year) with friends at the beach in St. Augustine. It was a cold and windy but sunny NYE that consisted of spike ball, beach karaoke, walking touch football in the sand, watching fireworks on the beach (and the spider parade of smoke that they leave behind), a random Irish Pub, playing imposter, eating 12 grapes under the table at midnight (I only managed 6), and quality time with some people I really love.

On New Year's Day, I flew back to Raleigh for one full day before we headed off to Nicaragua. I had never been to Central America, so I was super excited to have the chance to travel there. It is a beautiful tropical paradise marred by poverty and brokenness. Driving from the airport to our lodgings, we saw streets lined with colorful metal trees, which I thought might just be a fun artist's contribution to the city. However, we later learned that the President’s wife is involved with witchcraft, and the trees are a symbol of her dictatorship and the authoritarian rule of the government.

There were some really wonderful parts of our trip, like surfing in the Pacific Ocean, the hospitality of the Buzbee family, swimming in the pool as the sun set, celebrating Reagan’s birthday, Tajin on everything (iykyk), the prayer room, ziplining, waterslides, and the Laguna. There were also the most incredible, strong, feisty, silly, and sweet little girls in the community of Los Fortunas, where we went to serve, who were a joy to be around. They ran that town, literally and figuratively.

There were also some really difficult parts of the trip, like being made aware of the lack of clean water, accessible education, waste-management infrastructure, and the safety of girls and women in most communities. In my time as a Raleigh Fellow, I have become more aware of the world's hard, broken parts, now including parts of Nicaragua. I have found that being faced with this brokenness has moved me into a posture of greater awareness of my own and the world's. This grief would be impossible to bear without the knowledge of the victory of Christ over sin and death. I still have many feelings to process about my inability to make the world perfect (Enneagram 1 saying hello) and anger toward a government that does not care for its people well. But, if anything, I have been brought to a place of powerlessness that exemplifies my and the world’s desperate need for a savior.

Even though the trip was difficult, I left feeling refreshed, with quality Fellows time, and deeply seen and known by the Lord after receiving some prophetic prayer (I went in soooo sceptical of this, but ask me how it went). We got back to Raleigh super late on a Saturday night after a 5-hour layover in Miami (2 of those hours being spent at the airport Chilis). Sunday night, we enjoyed a youth group silent disco (my first ever) before a Monday morning at Mary Young's house for a Spiritual retreat morning, which was very helpful for processing our time in Nicaragua. Then back to work!

The rest of January was marked by work, the Enneagram, cancelled classes, baking cookies with Maggie Mae, Monday night round table, The Standard and Beows, ice and snow warnings that kept us inside (and made me terrified to lose power… if anyone needs 20 hand warmers let me know), catching a cold, Friday night church, birthday parties, and a fellows gal sleepover. So safe to say… what the heck happened in those 31 days. Despite feeling like a fever dream, it was fun to rest and have a mixed-up, not-as-full schedule that allowed spontaneity and gave me time to read non-fellows books.

I love you all! Thanks for reading and talk to you in February XOXO - Jackie

A peek into beverly's january

It’s your favorite fellow Bevi writing to you from our second weekend in a row of winter weather (during which everyone stays home and cancels everything). Been feeling a bit antsy for a routine, and it doesn’t feel like fellows has actually gotten in full swing yet this semester. We keep having snow days, church and work and RT and neighbor to neighbor and class have all been affected or haven’t really started yet. BUT this made me realize last week how we take our routine and busyness for granted; feel like I’d be complaining if we did have it that I was too busy, and now am complaining without it that things feel off. I guess the conclusion then is to be grateful for this rest and also be grateful when things get back into full swing. 

We started the month with a trip to Nicaragua for a week and it was an extremely rich experience! It really was awesome in so many ways. We spent lots of the week exploring, playing, eating, experiencing life-giving prayer, and resting (ask me how I injured my foot while surfing oops). We also spent time working, getting dirty, experiencing really difficult prayer, and lamenting lots of hard things. Lots to unpack but the trip taught us how to slow down, work out of our rest, pay attention to God, and expand our perspective on almost everything. My summary in my journal says: I saw how great and grand God is, saw what God is doing in Nicaragua and in my heart too, felt His presence and heard Him tell me things to listen to, felt full of the Spirit, learned how rest can lead to work, and learned how to lament poverty and brokenness.

I really enjoyed our daily rhythms of sharing consolations and desolations as a group. One of my top consolations was getting to know some of the little girls in the neighborhood we were in and seeing how they clung to us. One day, we walked around and prayed for families in the neighborhood. It was a very powerful and Spirit-filled day. It was an honor to meet the people there and attempt Spanish to connect, hear their stories, and pray for them. During this, the little girls wanted to follow us and learn from us as we prayed for their neighbors. I’m praying that God used our time together to reveal Himself to those sweet little girls. I’m so grateful for those moments together and for the trip as a whole.

Things since Nicaragua have been a blur, but also super rich. God has been teaching me a lot through some tricky things. I’m learning a lot from Him and also learning about myself through our career assessments and enneagram classes. Stay tuned for next week as we go on our career calling retreat and maybe get some clarity? Also enjoyed our visual prayer time with Pauline and Roundtable about Emotionally Healthy Spirituality. It’s feeling blurry and overwhelming. In Nicaragua I experienced such clarity from the Lord and am trying to learn how to do that more easily while in Raleigh. 

It’s been fun to be back with the fellows and spend time together in Raleigh. So sweet and makes me excited for the fun things this semester. We’ve been going out to eat, playing lots of games, having girls nights, and we went to Gabi’s bday party together and had a slumbie afterward. I’m also grateful for quality time with my mentor Elaina and my host family. 

What’s next? Writing family genogram paper, considering career/future ooo scary, quality time with fellows, and probably more things being stirred up in my mind to learn from. Gonna go eat lunch and look at the snow now! Thanks for reading!

My slow sunday thoughts

We’re back and a month has never gone by faster! January was a wild month - for me it started in my college town seeing my closest friends and then quickly heading to Nicaragua with the fellows. (we’ll be heading back to talk about our trip very shortly) The rest of the month was kind of a jumble of things, mostly surrounding the snow and ice that has been hitting Raleigh. The weather has brought some gifts to me - getting iced in at the Miedema’s with Hailey, getting to truly rest and slow all the way down, walking outside in fresh snow that reminds me of living in Virginia, and having the space to engage my creativity for many hours crafting on my floor. It also has imposed on my month in a couple of ways - cancelling two weekends of my friends coming to visit from college, making it harder to get in routine in Raleigh, and keeping me away from work. (I know this might sound crazy, but I love my job and I missed those days on my latest paycheck) Although inconvenient, the snow offers such beauty that I’m trying to soak up. The quietness our world rarely offers, uninterrupted time to process our trip/enneagram work/a new year starting, an excuse to spend the whole day in my pajamas, real true space to pay attention to my soul and the Lord’s whisper. 

So back to Nicaragua! I know y’all are dying to hear about it and it really was a huge part of my month, including much inspiration to slowwww down. Something about me is that my soul and body really want to live at a slow pace - I am my most real self when I can take my time, be present, breathe, walk slowly on the sidewalk. As soon as we landed in Nicaragua and met Coburn (who led our trip), I realized this pace my soul craves would be satisfied. It was explained that our time there would be a pilgrimage rather than a mission trip which if you are like me prior to the trip, you might be saying “huh what does that mean?”. Coburn explained it as a time to really experience Nicaragua, being able to pay attention to what God had for us, noticing God’s character in the people and places of the country. It was a slower, more holistic model for this type of trip than I had ever heard of or experienced. I loved it!!! We spent the week moving at the pace that I imagine Jesus moved at - easing into the day, stopping to listen and fully be with people, prioritizing playing and delighting, and yet still getting what needed to be done, done. And something awesome happened, my soul was recentered, my eyes were fixed on the heart of Christ. Not because we were working 24/7 with our heads down, but because the people in Nicaragua were open with us by sharing the consolations and desolations of their life, because I got the chance to stare at a volcanic lagoon while eating a pb&j, because I encountered the presence of the Lord in a tiny, tiny town called La Fortuna, and because I woke up in peace and went to bed grateful! 

I could talk forever about the specifics of our trip and how they’ve changed me and brought our group closer, but for now I’ll share what is sticking out to me this morning as I reflect. I’m struck this morning by the story of the thief on the cross next to Jesus in Mark’s gospel. The thief’s place in heaven was secured by one sentence “I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise.” When we were in La Fortuna listening to incredible stories of struggle and faith I was reminded of the boundless ability of the Lord - absolutely filling people far from comfort or stability or even a church with his flowing spirit. What did it take for the thief on the cross to go from hurling insults along with the crowd (Matthew 27:44) to humbly acknowledging that the man next to him was the word made flesh? A short encounter, simply time spent in arm’s distance from him. That’s the power of our God - for you, for me, for the people in a sheet metal, dirt floor home in Nicaragua. All it takes is proximity to his spirit, which reaches to the very ends of the earth, to transform hearts. We are all the thief on the cross, paying the price for our sin until we encounter the one who can wash it all away. 

I hope you’re enjoying the snow and your February 1st, this is what I’m enjoying:

• Taking some fellows & maggie mae to hot pot (picture below)

• Scrapbooking!!

• Rediscovering the enneagram and diving in

• The way the fellows and Ashley celebrated me on my birthday in Nicaragua!

• My new found love for yogurt - solely the brand siggi's

• Watching Hailey be her full self because Harry Styles has returned

• Walking around Shelley Lake

• Ziplining and swimming in Nicaragua, surreal!!!

• Buying an oura ring secondhand - this is two days old I’ll keep you updated

• Life! Just loving it 

Okay bye, I need lunch!!

Xoxo, Reagan

What’s up blog people

Looks like I’m keeping my New Year’s resolution of posting these on time so that Ashely doesn’t kick me out of the program! Coming to you live from my bed while we wait for our second “snowstorm” of the year to come. This crazy weather has led to some really sweet moments and frustrating schedule changes. I am someone who thrives in structure and routine, therefore class being cancelled and remote work days has messed with me getting back into my groove this semester. However, I was able to add an extra day to my annual family ski trip last weekend that really worked out in my favor, especially since Virginia actually got a lot of snow. Made for an awesome pow day!

I mentioned briefly at the end of my last blog that I got engaged! It is true! Simas proposed on December 28th, I said yes and it was the best day ever! He truly thought of everything, planned so intentionally, had my whole family and many friends in on it and they all did INCREDIBLE jobs keeping their secrets from me and making me feel crazy. I don’t even think about the stress of pre-engagement anymore because I am overwhelmed with joy and love from the people around us! With that being said, wedding planning does it exist, and I am trying my best to be productive while not letting it distract me from my fellows experience. These 9 months are precious and deeply important to me. I am learning to hold being both a fellow and a bride— setting the right boundaries with planning while giving myself space to be excited and dream. I am feeling incredibly grateful for the gifts the Lord’s given me in this time and for what’s to come.

Okay wedding stuff DONE. Now I would like for this month’s blog to be a R.E.P.O.R.T.

Reading, Eating, Playing, Obsessing, Recommending, Treating. Let’s go:

R(reading)- Genesis and Gender for Nick’s class. It is a really interesting read so far and I’m excited and intrigued to hear more of our discussions in class.

E(eating)- Ramen, specifically when you’re sick. Unfortanuetly I did fall victim to whatever illness is constantly going around, and last week I barely had a voice. Simas and I went to a ramen resturant after we got home from Virginia and it was perfect.

P(playing)- In the snow / going snowboarding with my family and Simas! We all have the best time on the mountain together.

O(obsessing)- My host family! They are the best best best. We had my bff Emma over for family dinner on Thursday night and we stayed up until 10pm just chatting and hanging. I love how comfortable they’ve made their home feel and how fun it is to me around them. They cheer me on so well.

R(recommending)- Having a slumber party with your besties/fellows. We slept over at Maddie Graces’s house and went to Sola in the morning and it was just the sweetest bonding time with them. My soul needed it!

T(treating)- Buying coffee. It will always be buying coffee for me. Right now the craving is often Iris, iced cherry marzipan latte with oat milk. Or if it’s Jubala, a flat white with almond syrup and of course, oat milk.

That’s all for now folks.

Until next time,

Carsyn