Truly, I cannot believe we are already in December! This program is flying by and I feel like were still just now getting started.
Here’s a quick life update:
My shoulder is in full swing (not range of motion wise but healing nonetheless) and tomorrow is my last day to wear my sling! WHOOP!!
I have my treasured FJ Cruiser back from the shop and I can drive it once again!
Darby and I are still getting married!
Like I said, I really can’t believe how far we’ve come in this program. I can’t describe how much good it has done for me. I don’t have anything profound to say other than that. I am being challenged. I am wresting with questions about my life like “Do I make too many excuses for myself?” or “Am I too hard on myself?”
I am asking questions about God. “How do I live with childlike faith without being naive in this post-fall world?” “How does one practically accept God’s grace?” “What is intimacy with God look like?”
I am wondering about what life will be like when I marry my betrothed. How will I mess up? How will we annoy each other? How will we love differently then compared to now?
What will it be like to go back to school? Will I regret spending two and a half years doing this? What if I hate research? What if I love it?
Anyways, it’s fun to think about the future but I feel it clouding my vision. I pray that I can fully immerse myself with what’s in front of me now (the Raleigh Fellows) and healthily dream but not worry about what’s to come. It’s fun to ask these hard questions, though! Heck, I feel like I won’t ever find an answer to some of these. But I guess that’s okay, I think God just likes that we care to ask. That is something I can find comfort in!
God Bless,
Jack B.