Over this past month I have been very teary. . .
It seems as though sadness and heaviness have characterized a great deal of my emotions lately. This sounds really hard, but honestly it has been somewhat freeing. It has given me the space to be raw and find healing and hope in the midst of a challenging and overwhelming season.
I am currently walking through a book called: Hinds Feet on High Places by Hannah Hurnard (I am sorry to say it is taking me much longer than I anticipated to finish this 130 page book) and I have yet to read a page without tears beginning to well in my eyes or a knot forming in my throat. The story is about a girl named “Much-Afraid” who lives in the Valley of Humiliation, but finds the courage to begin following the Chief Shepard up to the High Place. It is a slow and steady walk - one that looks daunting and even like it is going in the wrong direction. But Much Afraid is slowly learning to trust the shepherd and know his promises are true
. . . I still have a great deal of the book left to go, but I love it.
I really recommend reading it. . . .
. . . I don’t think i’m great at blog posts. I really do get frustrated thinking about “what I SHOULD write about” or “what is GOOD to write" about”. I know there is no formula, but I feel like my thoughts are always scattered so I don’t know what to write about.. I am sure part of the melancholy season I am finding myself in right now has much to do with feeling overwhelmed by the next steps to come, but even the weight of life that is happening currently. I know these sentences and feelings are not original. I am aware I am not alone in feeling them. . . they’re just part of life. sad. hard. weary. . . funny how our world knows these things come and yet the remedies offered are so unfulfilling and even more exhausting. . .
How sweet is the Lord to offer us R E S T and a place to come before him in weariness.
I am grateful that as many tears as I have cried in my life, the Lord has wept oh so many more for me. That is humbling. It makes me truly remember how DEEPLY the Lord cares for his children and knows what the weight of this world is like.
Thank you Lord for loving us perfectly. I am grateful.
-Berkley