In one of our classes over the last couple weeks, the question, “what’s a word to describe how you’re feeling right now?” was asked. Now the last couple weeks have been really busy from my perspective. 2 weekends of retreats in a row, a night of volunteering at Shark Tank, a late night at the fair, and busyness at work have made rest hard to find. So while answers of tired, overwhelmed, exhausted, and other adjectives that have to do with a lack of rest were thrown around, Hayden described what I was feeling best.
“I just feel full”, she said.
It’s true, my life right now feels very full without much room to add anything else. We’re working 24 hours a week, taking classes, volunteering, building community, and also exploring Raleigh more and more. But the more I think about how full it is, the more appreciative I am and the more aware I am that it’s a fullness directly from the Father. My words can’t do justice to this feeling so I’ll let Ephesians 3:14-19 take it from here.
14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
I’m so thankful for a full schedule and a full life right now. I miss my family and I miss my college friends, but I’m grateful for a God who’s love for me is wider, longer, higher, and deeper than I can grasp. And I’m thankful for this sweet community of Fellows, the Lord’s holy people, that help me see this love of God more and more daily.
And this is my prayer for you, whoever you are that’s reading this. That out of His glorious riches, He may give you strength, that Christ will dwell in your hearts, and that you’ll have power to grasp how wide, long, high, and deep the love of Christ is for you. May you be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
- Jacob McCarthy