Life is oftentimes determined by your desires. What influences your desires therefore dictate your life. We need to ask ourselves, does our faith influence our desires? What is our mindset about what we do and why we do it? Are we living for personal gain? Do we only care about our desires? Are we seeking to understand those around us? Do we know ourselves well enough to begin answering these questions?
These are just a few of the questions I have been asking myself this past month. I came into this year of Fellows for personal discovery and growth. I started rethinking my mindset for my life and career during my senior year at Clemson. I experienced Christ’s love in a deeper and prolonged manor in college, but I knew I needed to take a step back to support my heart knowledge and marry my heart and head. So, I pursued Fellows because I knew I would have the encouragement to grow in this way, but also to be challenged to grow in other ways as well. God doesn’t make everything good also easy. I have been challenged to think differently and ask myself some of these questions. If my mindset is negative and poor towards challenges then I may not learn to experience God in new and different ways that he wants to build a relationship with me in. While I have gained head knowledge during Fellows I have been challenged to strengthen my personal relationship with the Lord. This deficiency has been hidden at times due to the frequency we talk about God, but thanks to the nature of the business of the Fellows program the lack of intimacy with God and rest in him is made apparent.
So yeah those are some of my thoughts and things I’m thinking through. HBD Ash sorry this is very late.
-Tim